Wreck of the Whale Ship Essex: The Complete Illustrated Edition - Owen Chase (William Coffin, Jr?)
In the Heart of the Sea: The Tragedy of the Whaleship Essex - Nathaniel Philbrick
The Buddha in the Attic - Julie Otsuka
There she blows! A week ago The Whale by Philip Hoare breached off my larboard, spouting it's magic, misty whale breath, hypnotizing me with its broad, waxy back, flashing its fluke in my face and splashing spume onto my ship's deck. As soon as it dove, disappearing beneath its footprint, I hove to and called out for a gam with my sister ship the USS Rumble. "Full and by the mizzen top sail off the lanyard point to on the poop deck, aye Cap'in?" Captain Richard knew exactly what I meant, and graciously loaned me Wreck of the Whale Ship Essex and In the Heart of the Sea.
I ate them up like a finback eats krill. Don't ask me how a finback eats krill...something about baleen. As you can probably tell, I know nothing about whales or sailing, so "the complete illustrated" part of Wreck of the Whale Ship Essex - charts and photos mostly - really helped me appreciate what I was reading. Also included in Wreck are excerpts from Moby-Dick and other books about maritime disasters. In the Heart doesn't just retell the Essex story, it sails it, hunts it, stoves it, starves it, tries it, finds it, loses it. Captain Pollard: "My God, Mr Chase, what happened?" Chase: "We have been stove by a whale."
The Buddha in the Attic is the second Julie Otsuka book I've read this year - When the Emperor was Divine is the other. Both books follow Japanese Americans into the WW2 prison camps [where did 'internment' come from?]. Emperor follows a family - mother, father, daughter, and son - from pre-war California life into prison and back out again. Buddha follows thousands of young Japanese women arranged to be married to Japanese men already living in the U.S.; Buddha follows them, written voices and voiced thoughts, across the Pacific, into the marriage bed, into the fields and shops and homes to work, into motherhood, into war-time, stopping short of the prison-camp experience. The final chapter of Buddha records the voices and experiences of white neighbors immediately after the Japanese are taken away.
Otsuka's writing is so accessible, so open, so human...there is no escape. The effect is a kind of relentless clarity. Relentless connection to the story and characters. Both Emperor and Buddha are short books, for which I am grateful. I'm not sure I could handle a 400 page Otsuka manuscript; I'd be a puddle of emotions by the end of it. These are stunningly beautiful books.
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Just a quick thought - Jesus said that the only sign he would give would be the sign of Jonah, three days in the belly of the whale, three days in the tomb before rising again. Is the sign of Jonah, in some sense, the sign of the whale? "One calm, windless morning when the sea was flat as glass and the sky a brilliant shade of blue, the smooth black flank of a whale suddenly rose up out of the water and then disappeared and for a moment we forgot to breathe. It was like looking into the eye of the Buddha" (Otsuka pg13; Otsuka uses italics for speech or quotes). Is the sign of the whale, in some sense, the sign of the sea?
The Bible has such a rich imagery of the sea - the formless waters before creation, the great flood, the crossing of the Red Sea, Jesus calming the waves with a word. Waves and waters can represent threat, chaos, tumult: "the roar of the seas" (Psalm 65), "the waters have lifted up" (Psalm 93), "the torrent washes over me" (Psalm 69). There are some Biblical allusions to the near eastern myth of a storm god (Marduk, Baal) battling and vanquishing a sea goddess or sea monster (Tiamat, Rahab) - like in Psalm 89, "You rule the raging of the sea; when its waves rise you still them. You crushed Rahab like a carcass".
The sea is also a sign of God's greatness, God's power to separate the waters above from the waters below, God's wisdom and mercy to "set a boundary that they [the seas] might not pass, so that they might not again cover the earth" (Psalm 104), God's world-encompassing salvation, "the earth shall be full of the knowledge of the glory of the Lord as the waters cover the sea" (Habbakuk 2:14). God is so great that "Leviathan You [God] formed to sport in it."
When Jesus claimed the sign of Jonah, three days in the belly of the great fish, was he also claiming order out of chaos? A return to the watery womb of creation? Union of male (storm, lightning) and female (sea, waves)? The mystery and majesty of the whale? The world-covering flood?
Sunday, December 31, 2017
Sunday, December 24, 2017
2018 Jesus Read-a-thon
I've always wanted to spend a year reading as much Jesus literature as possible...is 2018 the year? I'm gonna give it a shot. My brother Richard said he'd read some with me, so I hoping we can keep each other motivated.
Here's a list I made based on what we have in the library here at Richmond Hill. A handful of the books I've read before and need to read again. Most I've seen in the library and have been intending to pick up. Now's the time to pick them up! My plan is to make a weekly blog post with reading notes. Consistency is my goal. Read and write, read and write! Then, at the end of the year, perhaps I'll be inspired to write some kind of critical summary or spiritual reflection type thing.
A year or two ago I read Housekeeping vs The Dirt, by Nick Hornby, a collection of his book reviews from the periodical The Believer (I think he has a bigger collection called The Polysyllabic Spree). I ate it up like candy; part book review, part memoir, part satire, it was insightful, personal, and hilarious. That's my dream - to be able to write something like that using mostly religious literature.
This list is overfilled with WASP-y males like me, and also overdependent on the Jesus Seminar. People out there in cyberspace, I'd love some suggestions to diversify my author list. I may not be able to read it this year, but just having the title and author in my mind for future reading would be a comfort. Thank you!
Here's a list I made based on what we have in the library here at Richmond Hill. A handful of the books I've read before and need to read again. Most I've seen in the library and have been intending to pick up. Now's the time to pick them up! My plan is to make a weekly blog post with reading notes. Consistency is my goal. Read and write, read and write! Then, at the end of the year, perhaps I'll be inspired to write some kind of critical summary or spiritual reflection type thing.
A year or two ago I read Housekeeping vs The Dirt, by Nick Hornby, a collection of his book reviews from the periodical The Believer (I think he has a bigger collection called The Polysyllabic Spree). I ate it up like candy; part book review, part memoir, part satire, it was insightful, personal, and hilarious. That's my dream - to be able to write something like that using mostly religious literature.
This list is overfilled with WASP-y males like me, and also overdependent on the Jesus Seminar. People out there in cyberspace, I'd love some suggestions to diversify my author list. I may not be able to read it this year, but just having the title and author in my mind for future reading would be a comfort. Thank you!
Jan - Biblical Jesus
KJV Gospels
God’s Secretaries - Nicolson
Gospel Parallels
Five Gospels w Commentary - Funk, Hoover, etc
Who wrote the New Testament - Mack
Feb - Historical Jesus
Excavating Jesus - Crossan and Reed
New Test. Background, Selected Docs - ed C.K. Barrett
Meeting Jesus again for the First Time - Marcus Borg
Jesus Christ and Mythology - Bultmann
Honest to Jesus: Jesus for New Millennium - Funk
Mar - Christian Jesus
Acts-Rev
From Jesus to Christ - Paula Fredriksen
Religion in Greece and Rome - Rose
The Real Jesus - Luke Johnson
The Kingdom Within - Sanford
Jesus through the Centuries - J Pelikan
Christ and Culture - Niehbur
April - Extra Jesus
Gnostic Gospels - Elaine Pagels
Beyond Belief - Pagels
Jesus - K. Gibran
Gospel According to Mary - Miriam Winter
Lamb - Gospel According to Biff - Moore
Christ out of Egypt - A Rice
The Last Temptation of Christ - Kazantzakis
May - Prophet Jesus
Isaiah-Malachi
The Prophets - A Heschel
The Suffering Servant - Christopher North
The Prophetic Imagination - Bruggeman
June - Jewish Jesus
Two Types of Faith - Buber
Jesus the Jewish Theologian - Brad Young
Between the Testaments - D.S. Russell
July - Muslim Jesus
The Qu'ran
The Muslim Jesus - Khalidi
Rumi
Aug - Hindu Jesus
Hinduism - K. Sen
Message of Jesus Christ - Gandhi
Autobiography - Gandhi
Gospel of John in Light of Indian Mysticism - Ravindra
Bhagavad-Gita
Sept - Buddhist Jesus
Living Buddha, Living Christ - Hanh
Coming Home: Jesus and Buddha as Brothers - Hanh
In the Words of the Buddha - selections from pali cannon
Without Buddha I could not be a Christian - Paul Knitter
Oct - Jesus comes to America
God is Red - Vine Deloria
Jesus in America: A History - Fox
The Book of Mormon
The Pipe and Christ - Stolzman
Jesus for President - Claiborne
Nov - Black Jesus
Jesus and the Disinherited - Thurman
Souls of Black Folk - DuBois
The Cross and the Lynching Tree - Cone
Trabelin On - Sobel
I Have a Dream - collection of speeches and writings by MLK
Bearing the Cross - Garrow
Dec. - English Lit. Jesus
Milton, Donne, etc
Jesus as Precursor - Funk
Thursday, January 15, 2015
review of 'Transitions' for PCC class
Transitions:
Making Sense of Life’s Changes
William
Bridges
Perseus
Books Publishing, 1980
Pages:
170
About
the Author:
William
Bridges (1933-2013) began a major transition in his own life in 1974: he quit
his job as a professor of American Literature to become…well…he wasn’t sure at
the time what he was becoming. His second career description might read:
speaker- consultant-counselor-writer, focusing on the transition process. He
spent the greater part of the second half of his life speaking, consulting,
counseling, and writing to help people and organizations make the most of the
transitions in their lives. This book, Transitions: Making the Most of
Life’s Changes,
is the first of several best selling books by Bridges on the transition
process.
Analysis
of Content
Transitions,
by
design, is a book with wide application. In it Bridges discusses his own
transitions, those of his counseling clients, those of his students, those of
tribal initiation rituals, and those transitions implicitly and explicitly
described in literature and ancient myth. He attempts to paint a universally
recognizable picture of the transition process – ending, then “neutral zone,”
then beginning – that is flexible enough to be used and referred to by people
making and enduring many different types of changes. This broad applicability,
I believe, is both the great strength and weakness of this book. His outline of
transition is general enough to be helpful in almost any situation, but because
of this openness and generality I found myself wanting more specificity, more
data. In other words, he makes a great argument, but he doesn’t really give the
reader any way to verify or falsify his work. He refers mostly to personal
anecdotes, the writings of other social analysts, and Jungian analysis of myth
and ritual. Transitions is more memoir and “self-help” psychology than it is “social
science.” This is by no means a “failure” on Bridges’ part! I don’t think he
intended to write a sociological study on modern transition processes. I just
wish that he could have written that book, too! I wonder if in his later books
on transition he attempts to use surveys and other data gathering techniques to
support his literary and personal groundwork. I really enjoyed his writing,
especially his use and interpretation of the Oedipus cycle. I recommend it to
any and all.
Points
of Interest
1.
The basic outline of the transition process, he says, “begins with an ending:”
something about us or in our lives ends. Sometimes we want the ending.
Sometimes we don’t. Sometimes we deny it. But we can’t transition and transform
without there first being an ending, writes Bridges. Then comes the “neutral
zone” – a “fallow” time when life feels dead, out of whack, and/or chaotic.
This neutral zone is very important for us, Bridges insists; it is a time when
the primordial chaos out of which we came can stir-up once more; it is a seed
bed for the new beginning toward which we strive. Then comes the new beginning,
which is always “untidy,” he says. In the least ‘successful’ transitions, so to
speak, the new beginning is just a repetition of what just ended. In fact,
Bridges says, such transitions really have “skipped” either the ending or the
neutral zone. In the best transitions, on the other hand, this new beginning is
driven by a deeper understanding and a more-whole self.
2.
Bridges draws on the riddle of the Sphinx of Thebes to describe the ongoing
transition that we experience. “What animal walks on four feet in the morning,
two feet at noon, and three feet in the evening, yet has only one voice?”
Oedipus guessed correctly – the human being – and became ruler of Thebes. The
first phase of life – childhood – is about dependence, experimentation,
identity development, play, and learning. The second phase – adulthood – is
about independence, work, relationship, commitment to the “tribe” and family,
self-definition and continued self-discovery. Instead of focusing on the “mid-life
crisis,” Bridges describes adulthood as a series of “crises,” a rhythm of “expansion
and contraction,” where one crisis sometimes sticks out as the “big one.” The
third phase doesn’t really have a name (elderhood?), but Bridges describes it
as a time of deeper connection, interrelatedness, and wisdom – more concern for
meaning and less for production.
3.
Transitions
describes more than it prescribes – but it does lay out ten tips for dealing
with transition: “1. Take your time.
2. Arrange temporary structures. 3. Don’t act for the sake of action. 4.
Recognize why you are uncomfortable. 5. Take care of yourself in little ways.
6. Explore the other side of the change. 7. Get someone to talk to. 8. Find out
what is waiting in the wings of your life. 9. Use this transition as the
impetus to a new kind of learning. 10. Recognize that transition has a
characteristic shape.”
4.
Bridges writes of four aspects of endings: Disengagement – no longer being
involved in the job, relationship, neighborhood, life-style, etc.;
Disidentification – no longer describing ourselves (internally and externally)
as being “of” that job, relationship, neighborhood, life-style, etc.;
Disenchantment – learning the “truth” underneath the “myths” and stories that
supported or constituted whatever it was that just ended; Disorientation – no
longer knowing which way is up, which way to go, which way is forward. This is
the entrance to the twilight, I mean, the neutral zone.
5.
Tips for the neutral zone: “1. Find a regular time and place to be alone. 2.
Begin a log of neutral zone experiences. 3. Take this pause in the action of
your life to write an autobiography. 4. Take this opportunity to discover what
you really want. 5. Think of what would be unlived in your life if it ended
today. 6. Take a few days to go on your own version of a passage journey.”
6.
Tips for beginning anew: “1. Stop getting ready to act and act. 2. Begin to
identify yourself with the final result of the new beginning. 3. Take things
step by step. 4. Diffuse your purpose and transfer it from the goal to the
process of reaching the goal.”
Personal
Reaction
I’m
feeling pretty tired of transition, to be honest. From high school to college
to a handful of jobs, through several deep relationships and several different
communities…I don’t think of myself as a transient but that’s kind-of what I’ve
been over the first decade of my adulthood. Don’t get me wrong I’ve had a great
life! Lots of great experiences. I’ve had my psychological ups and downs, but
I’ve very few complaints about my journey. In fact I’m very grateful, when I
stop to think about God’s goodness to me! But I guess that’s the point – I’ve
been moving so much that I haven’t so often stopped to think about God’s
goodness. Transition has been exciting and fun, but I think part of my call to
Richmond Hill has been a call to find ways to settle down to the bottom even as
the water of life continues to run toward the ocean. Stability in transtion.
This
book has given me some good words and ideas to apply to my life, to the life of
Richmond Hill, and to the life of all the relationships and organizations of
which I am a part. My biggest take-away from Transitions is the encouragement to
be consciously involved in my life’s transitions. Whether I initiate the
transitions or not, Bridges advises me to take time to think about and engage
in the endings, the “neutral zone,” and the new beginnings that are a part of
my life and of all life.
Practical
Presentation
10 min discussion activity in two’s or
three’s. Three topics: pg 15, pg 125, Biblical characters
Monday, January 5, 2015
Fears: PCC Response Paper 3
Of what are you most afraid?
When I was a boy,
and then as a teenager, I used to have dreams about seeing my younger brother,
John, die, and being unable to prevent his death. Not only was I unable to
prevent his death in these dreams, but I was negligent in my supervision; or at
least I felt negligent during and after the dream.
I remember one
particular dream: we – my family and me – are parked at an overlook on a
mountain ridge. Have you ever driven along the Blue Ridge Parkway or the
Skyline Drive? Then you know just the kind of roadside overlook I’m talking
about. The parking lot is long and shallow, with a small strip of grass between
the pavement and the rock wall at the edge of the cliff or bluff.
In this dream,
beyond the low rock wall is a steep granite ledge, at an angle down toward the
real edge of the cliff. John and I are walking along the rock wall, and I’m
nervous for him, but either because I’m unwilling or unable I don’t keep him
close to me. The sky is gray and cloudy and my family is out of view. Before I
know it John hops down from the wall to the granite ledge, and then he slips
toward the abyss. I don’t see him fall, but somehow I know he falls…and that’s
the end of the dream.
Four or five years
ago, not too long after my nephew, Joseph, was born, I started having similar
anxieties about being negligent and seeing him hurt or killed. I haven’t had
any dreams about it, but at some point I realized that Joseph had replaced John
in my “greatest fear” scenario.
What exactly am I
afraid of here? Is it losing these people that I love? I deeply love John and
Joseph, but I deeply love other people as well. Why is it John and Joseph in
particular? Is it failing to uphold my duty as an older brother and as an
uncle? I’ve had other duties and responsibilities as pressing and intimate.
I think John and
Joseph’s youth has something to do with the depth of my fear. Their innocence,
inexperience, vulnerability. They represent my own “soft” spots and deep
vulnerabilities. Do I fear my own vulnerability, or the vulnerability of life
in general?
My anxiety about
negligence is also a key to interpreting this. Guilt! Shame! I’m guilty about
my failure and ashamed about my inherent inability. I think it’s significant
that my guilt and shame have to do with a lack or omission rather than an act
or commission.
If John and Joseph
represent my vulnerability, then would being unable to save John or Joseph
represent my inability to protect myself? Isn’t that the definition of
vulnerability? I’m running in circles here.
Let’s go back to
guilt and shame: these are the real issues, I think. Am I afraid of them? They
say that you fear what you don’t know. I’m well acquainted with guilt and
shame! Why would I be afraid of them? Perhaps I’m afraid of the inevitable
production of guilt and shame. I feel trapped, unable to stave off my deepest
failures and inabilities, even when it matters the most. John and Joseph
represent the deepest truth and value placed by God in my heart of hearts, and
I feel continually unable to live up to that. That makes me afraid.
Who are you?: PCC Response Paper 1
Know
Thyself: Who are you?
My name is David
Bolling Vinson, though I usually go by David – sometimes Dave. I’ve been Dave-o
to a few friends, David (sounds like ‘Dabeed’) in the Dominican Republic, and
Dawut (sounds like ‘Dawoot’) in Turkey. I’ve answered to “dude,” “white dude,”
“soccer dude,” “Vinson,” “Richard” (several of my school teachers often called
me by my older brother’s name), “man,” “hey you,” “DV,” “Mr. V” (in the school
where I worked), among other handles. My aunt used to address all her mail to
me as “Master David” for no apparent reason; I enjoyed that.
My parents named
me David after my maternal grandfather. Bolling comes from my paternal
grandmother’s family, and Vinson of course is my paternal family name. I
haven’t done much research into the Vinson name, but most in my family assume
it to be an Anglicized version of Vincent, which is a Norman name I believe. So
ethnically speaking, perhaps I’m Scandinavian-French-English-American, but
that’s just the paternal side I suppose.
I’m about six feet
and one inch tall, kinda scrawny, with long legs. I favor both my mother and
father, but my frame comes from my father’s side. I have brown hair, much like
my mother’s in color and thickness, blue eyes like my father, a round nose like
both parents, and very big teeth, similar to my father. My second toe is longer
than my big toe – somehow that is significant to my mother; she calls it
Morton’s toe and thinks it’s funny. My ears stick out, and on my right ear the
upper lobe is squished, as is my father’s and my older brother’s. I have a
slight dimple in my left cheek when I smile. Overall I look very similar to
both my brothers and my father.
To some extent I’m
the sum of my experiences, right? I grew up in Danville, Virginia, the second
of three boys in an educated middle class family. I lived in a middle class
white neighborhood and attended a middle class white church. I made my way
through Danville Public Schools, which is well integrated racially, actually,
even though the neighborhoods are quite segregated; I made good grades, even
though I didn’t study or retain very much. Sports, music, and church kept me
busy and happy.
When I was sixteen
my parents divorced, which rocked my world. My vague and intuitive notions of
home, family, humanity, marriage, love, morality, even of God, changed. Changed
how? I’m not sure. I was like an ignorant goat in the garden of Eden, watching
my human masters fail and then following them out into the “real” and fallen
world.
I went to college
and studied literature and developed a love for it, and a love for study. After
graduating I worked in Turkey as a home-school teacher, then came back to the
states to work in a boarding school for two years. I struggled painfully with
depression that second year, and I moved to Richmond the following summer,
bunking with my brother, Richard, his wife, Suzanne, and their son, Joseph.
Their hospitality and love were inspiring, and their family – now including a
precious daughter, Cora Rose – continues to inspire me.
I worked for a
school year as a teacher’s aid in the Sarah Dooley Center for Autism and the
Dooley School over at St. Joseph’s Villa. During that year I discovered, with
my sister-in-law’s help, this wonderful and fascinating place called Richmond
Hill. I volunteered now and then; I got to know some of the residents; then I
participated in their summer camp program; I felt a tug, and I was interested.
I inquired about and then applied for the one year internship in Urban
Spirituality, and now this month marks three years for me at Richmond Hill.
Thanks be to God! I feel God’s call to service here more strongly now than when
I first applied.
Who or what else
am I? I’m a personality – quiet, introverted, curious, silly, anxious,
depressed, open, adventurous. I’m a mess of habits – work, sleep, eat, scratch
my head, brush my teeth, pop my knuckles. I’m a character – kind, patient,
passive-aggressive, fearful, responsible, guilty. I’m an identity – Christian,
American, Virginian, Southern, White, Male. I’m a brother, son, boyfriend,
employee, co-worker, volunteer, citizen, friend, neighbor. I have tastes,
hobbies, stories, dreams, nightmares, hopes, goals. There’s no end to the ways
we can describe ourselves, it seems. And it seems we like to do so!
A teacher told me
once that there is 50% of me that I as well as others can know. Then there is
25% of me that I can know but others can’t know. And finally there is 25% of me
that others can know but I can’t know. That sounds about right, don’t you
think? Thankfully there is Someone who knows me completely, and loves me
completely. In all and above all I’m a creation and child of God, as we all
are. May God lead us to know more about ourselves, more about each other, and
more about God. Amen.
God: Pastoral Care and Counseling Response Paper 2
What is your
relationship to God?
What is my
relationship to God? Prayer is my relationship to God. Jesus is my relationship
to God. Love is my relationship to God. Grace is my relationship to God.
Humility is my relationship to God.
Which is more
difficult to describe: God, or my relationship with God? Does my relationship
to God have more to do with who I am or with what I do? First and foremost, I
suppose, my relationship to God has to do with God’s “character” and action.
I believe that,
insofar as I exist, I am related to God. God created all things, including me,
and God loves us all. God’s creative act and love keeps me in relation to Him,
whether or not I want to be related to Him.
Beyond that, God
invites me to intensify and make whole my relationship with Him. How so? Let’s
pick three ways; God’s invitation is at least three-fold. God invites us into
acceptance, awareness, and action.
God invites me to
relate to Her by fully accepting Her love. This involves accepting myself,
confessing all my sin, guilt, and shame, and accepting God’s forgiving love and
grace. God wants me to be His son. We are all already God’s creation, beloved
and cared for. God wants me to fully open my mind and heart to this. Accept
God’s acceptance of me.
Once I’ve accepted
God’s love, then I can begin to grow more and more aware of that love. Every
moment, every situation, every conversation, every human interaction is an
opportunity to become more aware of God’s love for me. I have no idea how this
works; in fact it seems crazy at times, because not all of my experiences are
good. Many are down right bad. And surely God doesn’t want terrible things to
happen to me. But somehow, even in the darkest times, God wants to show me Her
love. In every circumstance God invites me to grow in my awareness of His
presence and love.
There are many
ways I intentionally grow in awareness: prayer, worship, service, silence,
fellowship, conversation, listening, observation of nature, study, Scripture;
the list goes on. Is there anything that doesn’t open up as an opportunity to
learn about God? To become more aware of God and Her love?
As I accept and
become more aware of God’s love, I feel the call to participate in this love –
to act out this love. That famous command from Micah – “…love mercy, do
justice, and walk humbly with your God” is a great way to describe the action
that flows from and contributes to awareness. Many of the activities I
mentioned under awareness are as much in response to awareness as they are in
anticipation of awareness.
Acceptance,
awareness, and action – at the end of the day they are all one; they are all
summed up in the love of God as taught and demonstrated by Jesus Christ. Jesus
is not only the incarnation of God, he embodies my (and our) relationship with
God. Jesus embodies God’s love for us and our acceptance, awareness, and action
in response to God.
eternal life?
Somewhere I read a story about a
Japanese Zen nun who, for many, many years, studied diligently under a Zen
master. She faithfully meditated. She worked with the koans her master gave
her. She committed herself to poverty and non-violence. She begged her rice and
vegetables. She loved her life and her brother monks and sister nuns. But the
years went by without satori. She
emptied herself but found no breakthrough, no enlightenment. This nun and her
story have been on my mind quite a bit lately.
I’m so grateful for my life at
Richmond Hill. What more could a Christian want to experience? Each day I wake
up to join in our community prayers. Each day I have clear opportunities to
deny myself and follow Jesus through bookkeeping or cleaning
bathtubs or staff meetings or mentoring or shaking hands with visitors or
talking about the Kingdom of God coming in Richmond. Each day I find fellowship
and joy with the remarkable people that live, work, and pass through here. Even
on the most frustrating and trying of days, I see the fruits of the Spirit
evident in the work of all the people and prayers that make up Richmond Hill.
The semi-monastic model we have here has given me the supportive framework to
begin to find my way in Christ’s way. Perhaps it’s because I so love being a
student: the monastery has proven a most excellent school. There is always
something new to learn, and there is always something old to remember.
But there is a fundamental virtue
missing from my life. I don’t really know what it is or how to find it, yet
somehow I know I’m missing it. I intuitively know a little bit about what it’s
like. It tastes like freedom and feels like love. It looks like hope and sounds
like faith. Sometimes I call it humility. All these spirit-words are of the
same cloth, anyway, aren’t they? Maybe I should call this missing piece the
“eternal” or “unbreakable” life.
Jesus repeatedly tells us that his
instruction, lowliness, forgiveness, and love lead to this missing element,
this essential understanding. Which begs the question: if I am following Jesus,
why don’t I have this? How long before I experience this? Am I experiencing it
now and simply misinterpreting my life?
Let’s return to the legendary
Japanese nun. One of her daily tasks was to carry water for the community. She
carried it in a bamboo bucket, which she lovingly cared for and repaired
through the years. One clear night she was toting some water back from the
well, and as she walked she periodically peeked down to catch the reflection of
the moon undulating on the surface of the water. She cherished such moments of
natural beauty. All of a sudden the old bottom of the old pail gave way and out
whooshed the water onto her feet. Everything stood still, and her mind and
heart where set free: satori! “No more water in the pail,” she exclaimed, “no
more moon in the water!”
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